It seemed I had lost my creative voice... until some cows showed up.

The Creative Rut

I've been in what I can only describe as a creative rut.

It's not a scary place, but it's certainly not an enjoyable one. It feels like my brain is fried, overloaded with a mix of information, feelings, and thoughts until nothing new can get in. For the past eight months, I haven't had a project that lasted more than a month. This has left me with an abundance of free time that, if I'm being honest, I haven't used very productively. I've dabbled in things here and there, but nothing has provided the fuel needed to break through this creative crisis.

The core of it is a feeling of uselessness, rooted in that very capitalist idea that if you aren't "producing", you aren't valuable. Not having a steady job in this world is a heavy weight to carry. While I'm incredibly fortunate to have my parents' support, which means I haven't had to worry about essentials, the heaviness has been internal. For far too long, my mind has been stuck in a "you're not good enough" loop, and I was starting to believe it.

Then, something shifted.

A few days after putting these initial thoughts down, I went on a short work trip to Monterrey and Saltillo. That trip was a breath of fresh air (or in this case a breath of cow’s shit lol). It was a reconnection. I started to feel like myself again, reminded of why I love what I do in the first place. Seeing the world through my camera lens again helped to quiet those negative inner voices. Taking some photos that I was truly proud of reignited a spark in my heart and mind.

The world is going through a difficult time, and it's a reminder that the kindest thing I can do for myself right now is to be gentle. To embrace a little grace and stay positive while everything works itself out. For now, I want to share a piece of that healing process with you.

Below are some of the photos I took while I was away. I hope you enjoy them.

Here's to finding our way back to the spark. I'm excited to see what I'll have to share in the next post.

P.S. I'd love to connect in the comments. If any of this resonates with you, let me know. If not, just say hi and tell me where you're from!